INSIDE THE REALM OF LIFE'S PATHWAY

How Failure became a Success!!

2012-01-08T01:25:00.005+05:30

Starring: FMS, XLRI, HEC-Paris & LBS

I wind Back to the 3rd Year of Engineering. My grades were floundering & I realized that in a year's time I would be in the middle of the Placement Season..
I decided it was time to make a change.Mediocrity was not working.
Gradually things seemed to be falling in place.GPA improved marginally,I started winning.
Then started the 4th Year. I decided to give my best shot at Indian MBA exams.
It was more than just the best shot, it was more like getting in the zone for 6 months.
This continued from July-Dec 2010..

Then began 2011..Phewww, I never expected it to be the rollercoaster that it turned out to be..
5th January & I got the first interview shortlist..FMS..7-8 guys were shortlisted from my college & suddenly everything seemed within reach..

But this was the time for placements.It was time to play safe & secure a job,just in case..
Spirits were high, going into a job was the last thing on the mind..
The placement season started.2nd day, I got a shortlist from Oracle.
I still remember while walking for my interview, I thought, this is a software interview.
So let's just try & practice my PR skills..Java is as alien to me as french is..
Surprise, the same night I got a job.
I remember seeing seniors walking around the campus in the ORACLE sweatshirt & I could recall the respect I had for them then.
One big pleasant surprise had come my way..Over & out of the placement season inside 2 days & 1 interview.

But then, job was never a priority.It was a precautionary measure,FMS was my aim.
Then came the XLRI shortlists..98.98 percentile but a call from Human Resources Mgmt (HRM).
I was happy at the score,a bit upset about missing the MBA shortlist.But I didn't care.For me,it was FMS.

I worked hard,attended tons of mock interviews,Group discussions & what not.
Then came 14th March, the day I thought I would put the final seal on my masters.Interview went well but there were some goofups.I was still expectant.
17th March, evening 6:30, results came in..My friend had topped India.Another friend would go on to enroll there..I was not even on the waitlist.
It was a dream "shattered".
20th March, XLRI-HRM interview.I had decided,underperform,have fun because come what may, I wasn't going into HRM just because I wasn't getting an MBA call that year.I had a job,a good job & I could rely on it.
I had fun in the interview & ensuring that the interview panel considered me an obnoxious arrogant guy.Because I didn't want a scenario where I had an HRM call from XLRI,supposedly the best in Asia,I knew I would have taken the easy way out & gone for it.
And as expected I got a rejection.Felt no sadness,no remorse.
Just a clear road filled with tough moments ahead.

Got selected for a conference in Istanbul,represented India & learnt a lot during april.
Came back to college finished my pending units & returned back home having finished my engineering.
Then happened another surprise, this time a good surprise, I was selected for a paper presentation in croatia.
I wasn't expecting 2 back to back shortlists & more importantly 2 European visits within a month.
It was a big shock..
Had a great time in croatia,visited tons of places & made some great friends & some unforgettable memories.
Came back home & within a week my grandmother passed away.
I had my GMAT inside 25 days & I prepared for it the best I could.
It was tough maintaining concentration but this was my future at stake & I tried giving it my best shot.
3rd July, GMAT: 710/800..I had aimed for >=730.
I knew that with my lower gpa, a not so exceptional gmat would compound my problems & kill my chances of getting an admission at one of the schools I was targetting.
Soon it was time to move 2000 kms away from home to bangalore & start working.
8th August & I started working at oracle.
Parallelly i kept working on my essays, I knew that I was good at writing & this was my only chance of giving something exceptional to the admission committee, so for the London Business School applications, I worked on 6 essays & other parts of the application for 4 months.
I also applied to french schools. HEC Paris, ESCP Europe were the important ones.

In the meantime, after a long stretch of bad news & disappointments,a good thing happened.
I was relieved of the role of a software developer at oracle, a role I was least interested in & least talented in.
It was the first time that Oracle was giving a fresh engineering graduate with no MBA qualification, the role of a Business Analyst.It was a small peak scaled & I knew it.
But I knew, if I lost sight of my bigger goal then, it would all unravel badly.
So it was all about LBS & HEC all day post the office hours,late till midnight. & for 48 hours non-stop during the weekends without stepping out of my house.This lasted for 5 months in total.
I knew this was a high risk, high sacrifice & high return zone I was peddling in.

The date for the result for of interview shortlists to the french schools was mailed. Worries started increasing.
9th November, the clock ticked. There was one clock with the Paris time showing on it,on my desktop..I waited.At 2:00 PM the results were out, I was shortlisted for interview to HEC Paris,it was a big-big shot.
Ahh & yes ESCP shortlist also.. Wasn't very sure about how great it was but as was my wont, I focused on HEC.ESCP was reduced to the background.The problem was, all these french colleges had a common interview.So it was all or nothing.

15th november, I login to my computer at office & Lo-Behold the big daddy of Management colleges, World No.1--LBS has shortlisted me for an interview.It was a moment to savour &a moment to dread.
I could sense a pattern here, 2 shortlists,2 interviews.
I had been in that situation earlier in April & I was back in that same situation.Somewhere in the back of my mind, I was worried about everything getting repeated all over again.

25th November & the day of the interview for HEC/ESCP dawned.I had practised for the interview a hell lot.
Given a lot of mock interviews to my friends/flatmates.
Interview was interesting,grilling.But my gut feeling was that I had nailed it.I was happy,I was pretty sure,I was getting a final selection from HEC.It was the best interview that I could have ever given.I had handled every question well.

Meanwhile the interview date for the LBS interview was a drifter, decided to be held sometime before 20th december.But I was not worried, I knew somehow that a final convert at HEC was inevitable.
HEC was not going to be another FMS.

7th December,I was unable to sleep, woke up at 4:00 AM, watched a movie,the results for the interview to french schools were coming.The feeling was same as I had on 17th March,the day the results for FMS came.I was sure that today my life would change,everything would fall in place. Hardwork would pay.. .I tried to mirror every step which I had taken the day the interview shortlists were to be announced.But somehow the results didnot come in at 2:00 PM.Back at home in the evening,I was frantically refreshing every 2 minutes.
Finally at 9:00 PM results came.I checked my result for HEC.
"REJECTED". Shocked,numbed & completely shattered.I was not strong enough to see another rejection followed by everything that had happened earlier in the year & the amount of effort I had put in for HEC.
Anyways ESCP selected me with a 50% scholarship & the french govt was also considering me for a scholarship.I decided subconsciously that well, there is something wrong that I do time & again in the interviews.That is why I was getting rejected.
India,Europe.
The Rejection List had gone global.
I was 100% sure that I would never be able to convert an LBS interview.It was supposed to be a 90-120 minute marathon interview.So I just decided,let's savor the moment,remember the fact that a college,no wait, the best college in the world had shortlisted me & look forward to the experience of meeting an LBS Alumni.A bigshot guy in the Indian industry.
I was completing all my formalities for enrolling myself at ESCP.
Then the interview for LBS was fixed for 19th December.
I was going home on 22nd for christmas & my b'day on 23rd.So i thought,well let's just get over with this one final interview & then it would all end.I would go to a relatively lesser known but No.3 college in France.
No panic,no fear,19th morning came.Reached the interview location an hour early.
Interview started.I stumbled on the easiest question.Gave wrong answers.
25 minutes into the interview, I got a feeling I had during the XLRI interview, "dude your interview is screwed.Might as well have some fun, let's be dead honest."
And then came some deep questions about aim in life,motivation etc.
There was a set of answer,perfect in itself which I had earlier worked out.I decided to kick it out of the park.
Gave the most honest reasons,even though they were a bit childish & all this while I was feeling strange.
Interview ended in 75 minutes.
My gut feeling: This was a strange interview.No way am I getting selected.If I was the interviewer I would probably not select myself.I tried to remember that day,19th dec, I was afraid that I might have to remember that date,19/12/2011 as the day I goofed up the biggest chance of my life.
So sure was I of a reject that I couldn't even speak a few lines during that day & the next,without thinking about LBS,the enormity of the opportunity it brought with itself & the amount of hurt it would cause me or my parents if I was rejected here.
I joked with a friend that dude, if LBS rejects me then my rejection list would boast of the biggest brand names in the whole world.
21st Dec, I was restless because the next day I was going home.The time for hardwork had ended,the result good or bad, had been sealed.I was anyways going to europe,france...
6:57 PM, I came back at my desk at office so that I could logout & catch the 7:15 PM shuttle back home.
I checked my gmail homepage.It showed one new message.
The Subject line read: "London Business School - Application Decision"..
I knew that this was it.I clicked on the message.The first line read "Following your interview and final review of your application, the Admissions Committee is delighted to offer you a place on the Class of 2013 of the London Business School Masters in Management (MiM) programme, starting in September 2012."
I read it twice,WTF was this.I was accepted at LBS.
How the hell did that happen???
And then gradually it sunk in,life had dealt a tough card for the major part of the year only to hand me the biggest life changing success,2 days before my 23rd Birthday on 23rd December..
And the rest of it till now has been a moment to savour.
Hardwork & Persistance can make any person overcome any odds & achieve results that would be out of their radar of ambitions.
This is life & it will not be a smooth sail anytime soon,never was,never will be.
But these past 16 months have taught me one thing, "I can do anything I want if I set my heart on it" & so can any god damn person in this world.

You just need to have faith in yourself, the guts to work hard & the spirit of never giving up however shitty the scenarios might turn into..

Erecting Boundaries for achieving the sole ownership of the Eccentric Soul

2011-05-09T02:32:00.002+05:30

Eccentric people have their own quirks.Characterised by their extreme opinions they form the top .1% of the human race.
take any example,for this arcticle say mark zuckenberg,he has amassed a huge fortune but still lives in a modest 2 bedroom rented home..For him facebook is an obsession,a dream.
There is a major negative side to such personalities.For these souls,their dream is what they live for.
Its immaterial what happens around them.
Its a view of most eccentric souls,if you go through their biographies in the dawn of their lives that they believe
in pursuing their dreams with single minded devotion they gave up on a lot that most of the common person takes for granted.
Some of those things could be say giving up on something easier & apparent for something tougher & much obscure.
The struggle is perpetual in the life of an eccentric souls.
Eccentric souls also have a moral radar which guides them throughout.By moral radar it doesn't always mean the right one.

Once someone realizes that they want to live the life of an eccentric person,they need to quickly realize that
a lot of things will have to be given up.
Eccentric souls are a lot like poets.They can go on for months submerged in their own quirky world.
Sometimes one situation,one happenning can change their course of eccentricity.
In order to concentrate on this one quirkiness,one interest,one aim they readily give up on everything else risking everything
in this world to give themselves a chance of living & trying for their quirk.

In doind so they end up erecting boundaries,much like a kick me toy which comes back to its position no matter what happens.
This post is supposed to serve as an insight into the changing eccentric world of the eccentrics.

Change is goood.
Sometimes these changes give the ecentric souls a new scale to measure themeselves against while readjusting their obsession.

For the moment I can safely say that this eccentric soul is hell bent on some things & those dreams have been cast in stone.
nothing,no event can change an eccentric souls die-hard dedication to something..
And so shall it be.
Giving up on something precious to achieve something much more meaningful is what drives the eccentric soul forward.

The Point of No Return

2011-05-03T01:18:00.000+05:30

And so I make a triumphant return to the world of blogging..
wondering why did I return to blogging??
Sometimes we reach a point in life where whatever we think & whatever we want becomes immaterial.
As I spend the last 10 days in my university before graduating as an electronics engineer, I am trying to look back at what all changed in these years,these 4 years which were tough but rewarding..
Everything is moving at a frantic pace today..And I wonder why?

Sometimes a term called 'point of no return' is reached & which means that its imperative for us to gauge the ground realities rather than live in a make believe world.
I reached one today..
It sometimes makes us realize that change is the only constant..
I don't feel remorse..Its kind of a burden lifting or maybe something more serious..
When the dust settles down & we walk into the sunset,I guess maybe this haze would clear & the reasons would be clear..

Today is special in some ways due to the audacity of the moment..
But mostly an acceptance that this is it!!

As I go forward,I am shedding a lot of baggage it seems..
And it most definetly is for the good..

It was all about options & we made our choices..
Now its time to live up to the results of it..
And I think this is so gonna be legendary..

The cards are heavily stacked in my favor..
Now enjoy the BOOT..
You have actually been booted off!!!
GoodBye!!

Home is where the Heart Is..

2010-06-12T04:15:00.001+05:30

Hmm,its overcast outside as I punch in this post,here in london,ontario..
The last 20 days have been like the most standout days in my life..
My first international vacation..
Come to think about it,this day,a month back I was preparing for my 2nd last compree,amidst the golden standstorms of pilani..Hidden away in obscurity..
& now,I am on the other side of the atlas..
When i was young,I remember watching these countries on a world map and looking at them in awe..
This continent seemed like a distant dream..But as I watch the Sun go down on the north american continent,It feels hell awesome..
tomorrow I go to toronto & there I will be for 4 days..It is gonna be one helluva experience..

Now what's the concept behing the title to this blogpost??It seems so removed away from what i have written uptilll now..
Well now that my parents have shifted to ghaziabad,I guess ghaziabad will the place I go in the vacations..
But if I think now..If someone says the word 'HOME'-the instant picture that comes to my mind is the White Building in Jaipur..'Shubham Apartments'..
It was the place where I went to high school,where I prepared for engg exams which kinda sucked & it was the place where i used to look forward to coming to,for the past 3years..
I guess,I am beginning to understand the concept of what people mean when they say that they are attached to a house etc..

The basic point is that,Home will be F-1 shubham apartments,come what may,
coz that was where I grew up..where I have the most important memories of my life..the most cherished meetings with friends etc...

But then its believed that 'life always comes back a full circle'..
So let us see,when this vicious circle that has started just now,will come back to its focal point..
Maybe a job in jaipur..sounds kind of far fetched,but then stranger things have happened...
Right now,it TORONTO for the next 4 days..
Everything else can wait..

RAY OF HOPE.

2010-04-26T19:05:00.002+05:30

When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair -
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope,. one day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you're living in hope.

This article was adjudged 'The Best Poetic Composition' in MUSINGS '10 @ BITS-PILANI

Those EYES that keep me awake!!!!

2010-04-23T02:04:00.000+05:30

Everyone has his/her achilles heel..it varies but its something that cannot be ignored..

No one in this entire world, which has produced greats like Newton,Kepler etc,could decipher the story behind this phenomenon..

Its imperative for us to look deep down & find our ownachilles heel..

To hell with it..Do we actually need to search for it..

NOPE..Its out there almost in prominence,shrouded by our clever tricks..

I would rather call it the HEEL,that kicks us in the ass & gives our life a reason..

Beneath the cocoon of self banishment,

under the weight of our own backpacks,

if we look carefully,we will realize that the backpack is empty without this particular component..

Our very own achilles heel..

This gauntlet called life,which was handed to us the day we were born crying in some hospital room,

is by no means gonna stop anytime soon...

As I introspect,the toughest things are the one that matter the most..

the things we lost, are the ones that are the most treasured..

Its the secret flame that never burns out..

Everytime you go to sleep,

close your eyes,

you feel that steadfast & unwavering gaze,

that used to pierce you..

people talk about leaving footprints behind in the sands of time,

I say,look on those impressions that have been impinged on your soul..

Those are the ones that matter,

those are the ones that sometimes invariably become our achilles heel..

And as I lie here,waiting for sleep to swish past me,

I can't deny that I feel blinded when i see those eyes..

Peek into what's taught In "A core Instrumentation Course" (I I See)

2010-04-07T18:49:00.003+05:30

Today,after 9 days of hell when i had to face Exams every alternate day,I was finally free..
As expected I slept late last night after watching a movie..
And again,as expected,bunked a few classes..
But then the clock struck 3:00 PM, and even though I detest the lectures of this particular subject more than anything else,I somehow dragged my feet to this lecture,10 minutes late..
The sun was scorching down & it felt like I had been put in a kiln..
I took the last possible seat in the lecture where i prefer to play 'BUBBLE BREAKER' on my cellphone,rather than look at slides that rush by like a tornado..
I doubt,I have ever detested something more in my life..
Ok, I accept there was a phase,last semester when Mu-E was in the reckoning..
But after witnessing today's futile brainwash,
I can Carve this fact in Gold: ( I I See) is being taught by the most qualified & supremely talented teacher who doesn't bother picking up a chalk..
With all due respect,using a chalk won't cause SKIN CANCER.
When humans discuss the Cons of technological advancement,I think its people like these who contribute most significantly to such discussions..
Her antics of using the slides which seem as if they have been copied from any XYZ source seem justified, after all you just have to make them once & then use it for 25 years.Never ever pick a chalk again in your life.
HATS OFF TO YOU!!!

Now let us look at some snippets of today's Torturous & supposedly enlightening lecture:

1) Pigeons are Art Experts.They can distinguish with more than 95% accuracy between Van Gogh & Chagall's painting.

My Take: Ohh god!! really...What a find...I think we might just have witnessed the Eureka Moment in Instrumentation Engg History.
Just tell me: Are we biologists or Psychologists??

2)Do Pranay..Oops sorry..
Do PRANAYAM..
Do Yoga.

My Take: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suicide_methods
What are we doing in BITS? Can anyone remind me again..
Are we here to become BABA RAMDEVS?? We have LAN connection in our rooms in order to know about the Pros & Cons of pranayam & yoga.
Start the 'Department Of Pranayam Education & Excercise' (DO-PEE)..

3)Pilani has an Animal House where rats are tortured.

My Take: Atleast we shouldn't brag about things like rat torture just for the sake of learning about the neural network present in its brain.
How would you feel if you were subjected to the same treatement..
Are all those innumerable Quotes preaching us about Ahimsa,thinking purely etc.etc (I can't even recall the crap) just for show..I remember a student actually being asked to change his wallpaper just because it was a GUN.
talk about DOUBLE STANDARDS..

4)Americans consume 15.5 million aspirins per year to be energetic & pretty..

My Take: If you continue in this manner,then I surely assure you about one thing..
88 Cyanide Tablets will be taken in a single day very soon..
(All you guys wondering where that number came from,Its the total strength of the Electronics & Instrumentation batch)..

5)The most beautiful painting of VAN GOGH was a self portrait with an ear-cut..

My Take: What's this obsession with van gogh?? Who would be stupid enough to make a self-portrait & cut his own ear in that painting??

http://worldranking.blogspot.com/2009/06/top-art-schools-ranking.html
I would have enrolled myself in a course at 'The Yale School Of Art' or 'Cranbrook Academy Of Art' if i was interested in observing paintings..Spare me the torture..
I used to have trouble making a simple 'Sunrise Scene' or 'Village Scene' in my primary school,drawing exams..

6)Albert Einstein's brain weighed 1230 grams while the average human brain weighs around 1300-1400 grams..

My Take: In order to be revered around the world & be remembered by generations,just go to a highly sophisticated hospital & get about 100 grams of your brain removed.
The World will be at your feet..

I think I should end this post now, before I become insane or my brain gets damaged reliving such torturous experiences...

~~DISCLAIMER:~~ I was born free & India is a free country where i enjoy the fundamental right of expressing my views on anything that affects me directly or indirectly..
Blogging is all about writing what's on your mind..
Hence i don't think i need to give disclaimers..
Its MY VIEW..MY LIFE..
APPRECIATE IT or ,,|,, OFF

When Ambitions Are Buried Beneath The Sands Of Time

2010-03-31T23:30:00.000+05:30

My first ambition in life was to be a pilot..
I still remember the awed expression & the sense of thrill i used to get whenever i used to see an aeroplane fly overhead..
The sound of swooshing aeroplanes was the best sound to my young ears..
Aeroplanes were the Ultimate Sign of freedom..The Ultimate sign of Power..
To my young mind,it meant a chance to touch the sky..To be above everyone else..
It was like a different world altogether..
Aeroplanes were to me then,what Aliens & distant planets are to me now..
It was something that was so unbelievably dynamic,stylish & powerful that it kind of defined the Near Perfect Life to me some 10 years back..
even now when I fly in a plane,just imagining the kind of thrill & the sense of dread that a pilot must be experiencing at such an altitude gives me the kick..
I think that whatever anyone says,the biggest invention of mankind is undoubtedly 'A PLANE'.
And the most dynamic of them all are the F-16's..You just look at it & you feel like saluting them..
But that was then..When the whole world was a dream..
When America was meant to be located only on the atlas..
When countries,oceans & continents were meant to be learnt & answered in the Geography paper..

But now as realities sink in..& The complexities of life take control..
As my life comes to a standstill,
As I prepare for exams every alternate day..
As I prepare to celebrate GOOD FRIDAY & EASTER by giving exams on those days..
I can't help but think back to those days,when being a PILOT was my Ambition.
When swooshing in the air like a bird looked like my destiny..
& I wasn't chained to this Mental Asylum -'BITS-PILANI'

I wish I cud have been an Air Force PILOT rather than working my ass off for meaningless things..
For electronic circuits & for maths & for Rote-learning..
I wish I had stuck to what my young mind had desired..

I wonder if we mature as we grow up or do we leave everything behind.
I wonder if the best years in a person's life were those first 6-7 years when neither did you have the expectation of your parents to burden you nor their constant interference in your lives.
And then come to think of it,It was completely controlled by them in those years..
But then life was different..They were different..
After 21yrs,I have realised one thing,ONE VERY IMPORTANT THING..
Everyone must pursue something they love rather than live on & fulfill someone else's dream..
They may have given you your life,
you may be the world to them,
but sometimes they are the ones who unknowingly screw your lives completely..

Alas,there is but just one solution:
for all the time that is left,
even though i might have to live with the tag of being an engineer my entire life..
I will never ever,
I repeat never ever,
forget the way I was put on this fast track to hell..
You might have got an engineer as you wished,but you made my life meaningless.
And I can't help feeling totally justified if i want to go as far away as possible & settle in some distant land,
& start all over again where I am the one responsible for my actions,for my life..

There is no going back to those sweet days in my life..when a laugh meant a laugh..
YOU ensured it..
HAPPY EASTER!!!

This BLOG is now 'CARBON +'

2010-03-21T23:37:00.000+05:30

I came across this very innovative idea by some company, with its website as www.ixpo.com which has calculated that the net hits to a blog generate about 3.5kgs of carbon per year..
so in an effort to reduce it,they have asked every blogger to subscribe and write a post while simultaneously adding their gadget to the blog..
On mailing to them with the blog link,they authenticate it and plant a tree in return..
thereby making your blog CARBON +ve

A PLACE FOR ALL MY LIFE

2010-03-11T20:57:00.000+05:30

When I think back on those times,
and the dreams we left behind,
I'll be glad coz i was blessed,to have you in my life.
When i look back on those days,
I'll look and see your face,
coz you were right there for me.
In my dreams i'll always see you soar above the skies,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you,for all my life.
I'll keep a part of you with me,
and everywhere I am, there you'll be.
You have showed me how it feels,
to feel the sky within my reach,
and i'll always remember all the strength you gave to me.
Your love made me make it through,
I owe so much to you,
you were right there for me.
In my dreams i'll always see you soar above the sky,
In my heart there'll always be a place for you,for all my life.
I'll keep a part of you with me,
and everywhere I am, there you'll be.
Coz I always saw in you my light,my strength,
and i wanna thank you now for all the days,
when you were right there for me.
In my dreams i'll always see you soar above the sky,
in my heart there'll always be a place for you,for all my life.
I'll keep a part of you with me,
and everywhere I am, there you'll be.

Futile HoldBacks

2010-01-29T00:45:00.000+05:30

Sit back & relax..Play the music that soothes you..& READ ON!!!

Now start looking back to things that happened today..then slowly move back,to yesterday..the day before..& slowly fade into the past..
This Blogpost isn't about looking back,reminiscing & feeling dull,dejected & sad..Infact no more posts would be about a particular Falling apart..
But this is about an honest evaluation..
What i found out,was that generally we tend to MAGNIFY the moments that hurt us the most..This is what makes us hold ourselves back,to guard ourselves from future Re-runs of these episodes..

GO ON,Think a little more!!!

Through the haze of all the mismatched expectations,unfulfilled dreams,wrong choices & heart wrenching losses..You will finally see the place where all this originated from..

All this started from ONE major BLAST of happiness that shook the very foundations of your life..

It will vary for each one of us...maybe..

It might be about RISING back,
hitting back at your detractors..

The first realization,
that maybe YOU really are destined for greatness..

The Shriek of a new-born child as it plays in your arms for the first time..

The day you fought back from being down in the dumps & fulfilled a DREAM (even if it was someone else's)..

The first time you found your TRUE CALLING..

The day YOU took charge of your Decisions..

The moment YOU saw the girl of your dreamzz & felt, "GOSH!!! I REALLY DO LOVE HER.."

The day all your big calculated bets paid off & everything fell into place like a jigsaw puzzle..

AT EACH OF THESE MOMENTS YOU HAD THE WORLD AT YOUR FEET!!!
IT FELT LIKE,NOTHING COULD GO WRONG..

But then something did go wrong..something disturbed this 'STATE OF ECSTATIC EQUILIBRIUM'..

The Path to HAPPINESS appears to me to be like Mt.Everest..you climb & climb & then climb some more..panting & puffing you punch your hands at the PEAK..
But after some time the descent has to begin..
& the fall is definitely faster..
Gravity does set in..

Nobody wants to climb down..

SO how do you ERASE the huge expanses of black gory days interspersed by MOMENTS OF PURE JUBLIATION???

What we generally do?? We,think about what went wrong..

LIKE:
Why did we accede to someone else's dreams when it was about our lives??
why did we give a larger than life place to someone in your life,so that,when they walked away,a huge CRATER was left in our soul??

Does it help??
NOPE..it sends you deeper into the ABYSS..
And ya,this point is applicable UNIVERSALLY..No exceptions,nothing..

Then also,you can't start believing that nothing bad will happen to you again.
That's untrue & completely pointless..

But you can change the way you RISE BACK AGAIN!!!
& who knows,maybe, the vast expanse of murkiness will be devoured by the EXPANDING purview of HAPPINESS..

So basically the point is:
'DON'T DWELL ON THE SAD MOMENTS..
Its No Use Holding Yourself Back..
B'COZ YOU ARE WASTING TIME,WHILE ANOTHER Mt.EVEREST AWAITS YOUR ASCENT'

DON'T LET THE SPARK DIE OUT!!!

2009-12-04T18:20:00.005+05:30

Remember the first day we had come to this college, leaving the comfort of our homes (or in some cases stifling discomfort), to become something in our life.
I am sure we were excited. There are few days in human life when one is truly elated. The first day in college is one of them.I call this excitement, the spark within us that makes you feel truly alive today. Today I am gonna blog about keeping the spark shining. Or to put it another way, how to be happy at most, if not all the time.Where do these sparks start? I think we are born with them. when we were infants we had a million sparks. A little Spiderman toy could make us jump on the bed. we got thrills from creaky swings in the park. A story from dad got us excited.
As we age, the spark fades. People whose spark has faded too much are dull, dejected, aimless and bitter.So how to save the spark?
Imagine the spark to be a lamp's flame. The first aspect is nurturing - to give your spark the fuel, continuously. The second is to guard against storms.To nurture, always have goals. It is human nature to strive, improve and achieve full potential. In fact, that is success. It is what is possible for you. It isn't any external measure - a certain pay package, a particular car or house or a certain overseas job(in my case).
Most of us are from middle class families. To us, having material landmarks is success and rightly so. financial freedom seems like a big achievement. But it isn't the purpose of life. If that was the case, Mr. Ambani would not show up for work. Shah Rukh Khan would stay at home and not dance anymore. Steve Jobs won't be working hard to make a better iPhone, as he sold Pixar for billions of dollars already. Why do they do it? What makes them come to work everyday? They do it because it makes them happy. They do it because it makes them feel alive. Just getting better from current levels feels good. If you study hard, you can improve your rank. If you make an effort to interact with people, you will do better in interviews. If you practice, your cricket will get better. You may also know that you cannot become Tendulkar, yet. But you can get to the next level. Striving for that next level is important.
Nature designed us with a random set of genes and circumstances in which we were born. To be happy, we have to accept it and make the most of nature's design. Are you? Goals will help you do that. I must add, don't just have career or academic goals. Set goals to give you a balanced, successful life. I use the word balanced before successful. Balanced means ensuring your health, relationships, mental peace are all in good order.
There is no point of getting a promotion on the day of your breakup. There is no fun in driving a car if your back hurts. Shopping is not enjoyable if your mind is full of tensions.
You must have read some quotes - Life is a tough race, it is a marathon or whatever. No, from what I have seen so far, life is one of those races in nursery school, where you have to run with a marble in a spoon kept in your mouth. If the marble falls, there is no point coming first. Same with life, where health and relationships are the marble. Your striving is only worth it if there is harmony in your life. Else, you may achieve the success, but this spark, this feeling of being excited and alive, will start to die.
One last thing about nurturing the spark - don't take life seriously. (BABA quoted)
Life is not to be taken seriously, as we are really temporary here. We are like a pre-paid card with limited validity. If we are lucky, we may last another 50 years. And 50 years is just 2,500 weekends. Do we really need to get so worke d up? It's ok, bunk a few classes, goof up a few interviews, fall in love. We are people, not programmed devices.
I've told you three things - reasonable goals, balance and not taking it too seriously that will nurture the spark.
However, there are four storms in life that will threaten to completely put out the flame. These must be guarded against. These are disappointment, frustration, unfairness and loneliness of purpose.
Disappointment will come when your effort does not give you the expected return. If things don't go as planned or if you face failure. Failure is extremely difficult to handle, but those that do come out stronger. What did this failure teach me? is the question you will need to ask. You will feel miserable. You will want to quit.
that is how much failure can hurt you,your endurance levels. But it's life. If challenges could always be overcome, they would cease to be a challenge. And remember - if you are failing at something, that means you are at your limit or potential. And that's where you want to be.
Disappointment' s cousin is frustration, the second storm. Have you ever been frustrated? It happens when things are stuck. This is especially relevant in India. From traffic jams to getting that job you deserve, sometimes things take so long that you don't know if you chose the right goal.
Frustration saps excitement, and turns your initial energy into something negative, making you a bitter person.
A realistic assessment of the time involved.Remember, nothing is to be taken seriously. Frustration is a sign somewhere, you took it too seriously.
Unfairness - this is hardest to deal with, but unfortunately that is how our country works. People with connections, rich dads, beautiful faces, pedigree find it easier to make it.
And sometimes it is just plain luck. There are so few opportunities in India, so many stars need to be aligned for you to make it happen. Merit and hard work is not always linked to achievement in the short term, but the long term correlation is high, and ultimately things do work out. But realize, there will be some people luckier than you. In fact, to have an opportunity to go to college and understand this speech in English means you are pretty damm lucky by Indian standards. Let's be grateful for what we have and get the strength to accept what we don't.
Don't let unfairness kill your spark.
Finally, the last point that can kill your spark is isolation. As you grow older you will realize you are unique. When you are little, all kids want Ice cream and Spiderman. As you grow older to college, you still are a lot like your friends. But ten years later and you realize you are unique. What you want, what you believe in, what makes you feel, may be different from even the people closest to you. This can create conflict as your goals may not match with others. . And you may drop some of them. Basketball captains in college invariably stop playing basketball by the time they have their second child. They give up something that meant so much to them. They do it for their family. But in doing that, the spark dies. Never, ever make that compromise. Love yourself first, and then others.
There you go. I've told you the four thunderstorms - disappointment, frustration, unfairness and isolation. You cannot avoid them, as like the monsoon they will come into your life at regular intervals. You just need to keep the raincoat handy to not let the spark die.
Keep the Spark alive, not only through college, but through the next 2,500 weekends.

some excerpts taken from chetan bhagat's speech in symbiosis,pune.

HOW CAN I LET YOU GO!!!!

2009-12-01T16:28:00.003+05:30

i know i can't hold on forever,
i need to get on with life,
i need to erase every memory of yours from my life's canvas,
wipe out the sound of your tinkling smile,
stop caring for you,
face the demons rather than running away from them,
put up a strong front even as i pass those very lanes near our houses,
that are laced with memories of our early morning meetings..

but when i take my cellphone & try to delete your messages,
i get paralysed & start reading them,
& journey back to those wonderful times & jokes we shared,
my sleeping beauty,
how you used to get teased when i used to call you a baby,
& so i stare on the blank walls in my room,
& realize the pallid life that i am leading..

when i open my inbox,
it still has those long chats we used ot have about every damn thing in this world,
& i just can't get myself to delete you from my life..

its like the very best part of me is hidden in those memories,
& i can't imagine how i would live without them..
those are reminders of a time,many lifetimes back,
when every worry in this world,
would melt away when we talked & laughed togethter,
listening to your crazy french fixation,
marvel at how caring & responsible you were to your parents,
hear your sermons when i used to get mad about something,
& sharing everything that happened with me..

but now its all but a hazy dream that i had ages back,
i try to close you out,
do anything i can to forget you,
but i am helpless
& it pains me more because it was I who brought about all this..

if only i could turn back the time to 16th july '09 & stop everything that happened..
because i stopped living after that day..
& i don't think I will ever be able to forget you..
NEVER,because I don't want to!!!!

awaiting an inspiration!!

2009-11-17T21:46:00.006+05:30

what does it take to give your best shot??
all one needs is a source of inspiration that propelles us to look deep into our psyche & dish out the most hard hitting performance to get back on track..
earlier this used to be my story..
at every turn,i had that inspiration..
howsoever tough the going might be,i had a pillar to lean upon..
the centre around which my life revolved..
but once you remove the pivotal point from someone's life,stability becomes a core issue..
every moment you search for that elusive peace,sanctity & satisfaction that came along with all the other things..
looking back,i do regret what happened..
it hit me right in the centre & even as i struggle to grapple with the repercussions of my hasty decision to move on,I can't help but admit that the basic objective of taking that step has been defeated..
i had taken that step to bring focus in my life & here,now as i sit contemplating my past,
nearly 4 months after i left the most important relationship in my life,
i truly believe that i was lucky for all those years we had..
those 5years were like god sent presents to me..
life will never be the same without you and even though you said:
'BE HAPPY,MOVE AHEAD,DON'T THINK TOO MUCH & MAKE YOUR CAREER',
I live my life exactly the way you didnot want me to..
i wish this was a dream & i could be back where i rightly belonged..
but alas,i can't..
all i can think of is:
'YOU'RE THE MEANING IN MY LIFE,
YOU'RE THE INSPIRATION.'

'IF THE WORLD CRASHES DOWN OVER ME,
I KNOW THAT MY LIFE IS COMPLETE,
I FOUND YOU ONCE IN MY LIFE,
& NOW I CAN'T IMAGINE IT WITHOUT U BY MY SIDE'

let us wait for destiny to play out its part and maybe this isn't GOODBYE after all..
just a break in the path that we were supposed to walk together till the end..
'THE GOLDEN EMBOSSMENT REMAINS AN ELUSIVE DREAM'

for those of you wondering about the last statement-well,embossment is the meaning of my name ANKIT..
you al are witty enough to guess the rest,i guess!!!
lollzzz!!

what's going on???

2009-11-16T21:53:00.002+05:30

I sit here in front of my laptop,trying to start studying but i just can't..it sucks..studies suck & hence i am doing the most constructive thing rt nw..
in between this racket that's going on,I think there is an urgent need to pause,take in a deep breath & think..
these were supposed to be the best years of our life..the so called COLLEGE life..
the so called funky college lyf..
but i think what we *itsians have got is a very raw deal..
desert for miles outside the campus isn't an ideal situation..
club that to the sick schedule we have & i think the authorities have mastered the recipe for disaster..
I don't think the day is too far away when students will revolt..just like in any other engg college..
we need to follow in the footsteps of our GOA counterparts..
give them a dose of their own medicine..
unnecessarily playing havoc with young lives as their fav pastime is really sadist..sadist to the core..
i mean i can just go on & on & on about EDIC rt nw & still i wont be satiated..
i just need to know how can these prof's actually sleep soundly.what satisfaction they have..
considering the way they teach,i think 80% students will do a much better job than them..
accept the fact..you are all incompetent,useless,hard-nosed,arrogant people(are u qualified enough to be called humane),i doubt it..

DISCLAIMER:
the above work is a figment of my imagination & any resemblence to any fool dead or alive is strictly & purely intentional & you should seriously get pissed off,coz that's what is my agenda.. identify yourself..

B2B- back 2 blogging after a brief hiatus

2009-11-10T11:04:00.005+05:30

well i know its plaigarism-using B2B in my posts,as BABA had coined that that term in first year..
B2B-balls to bits..

after a gap of nearly 45days,i am back doing what i like best..blogging..
what is it that kept me away.well it was concocted potion of DIGI,CONSYS,Mu-E,EDIC etc..each worse than the previous..

assignments & tests are raining down on us in hailstorms..
yesterday was perhaps the most momentous bitsian day of my life..

down with high fever i had to face 3 damn exams..
the day started with a morning blast at 8:00 AM in DIGI.i had bombed in it..the odds were stacked heavily against me..

then came the breather in the form of CREATIVE WRITING t-2 at noon..i had held ground in it..with a burning forehead & aching body,somehow my writing skills had not deserted me..

by lunch the ghost of she who must not be named--my fav Mu-E teacher had started haunting me..i had no damn clue about how i would handle CADENCE online..for all those who don't know it..CADENCE is a software that is designed to suck all the happiness out of you like the dementors in harry potter books..

the moment you step inside O-LAB (that's the lab where the computers support the software),you can see the desperation,panic & a strong premonition among everyone of the coming disaster..

& so i slept till 5:30pm as studying was not possible..
neither was it understandable nor was I in a position to try..
I had voluntarily preponed my online from thursday to monday..
& suddenly it was looking like a suicidal decision..

the clock ticked away and finally at 6:00 AM i walked out to face my execution.
somehow I did pretty well by my standards as the evaluators were grilling everyone & screwing up everyone's scores.

finally at 7:45pm i walked out of the depressing portals of O-LAB for the final time in my life..

that's how yesterday went & right now i am bunking Mu-E class & news has just filtered in that the average for test-2 in it is 3.5/60
that's bloody brilliant..

IN BETWEEN & LOVING IT!!!!

2009-09-26T22:31:00.007+05:30

well guys,last time i wrote wz in hell..now i am blogging from heaven a.k.a my home..
what did i realize 2day..
well the bus journey wz pathetic to say the least with the scorching sun burning down...amidst the sun,dust n ever increasing overcrowding in shit RSRTC buses,i realized that sometimes we feel the calmest in peculiar situations..
as i looked out to the rushing by scorched fields with withering crops n drylands,
i felt calm..i felt cheerful coz i was going home leaving behind the worst part of me..leaving behind a life i hate n a degree that i would any day giveaway in return for the precious time of my life i wasted trying to get it..
finally i was able to devote time to the problems that have been nagging me but i had to push them away in order to stay afloat witht the cuthroat competition that is going on dr in PILANI..the DAMOCLES SWORD OF SUCCESS hanging constantly over our heads sometimes make us wonder if it would be better if the sword falls..

i denounce pursuing engineering if ur not intrested coz life nowadays provides INFINITE(i repeat INFINITE) different,easier and much more suitable ways of making it big in your life..don't ever pursue something unless you don't like the process that u have to undertake..the end result is not that should be accounted for,its the path to it that needs to be analysed before embarking on the long & winding struggle towards the destination..

so in order to lay my DEMONS to rest & be at peace with my life again,i want to somehow BELL THE CAT & do what i like,leaving behind shit transistors,mosfets,integrated circuits & transducers..

i mean tell me how the bloody hell does it matter whether the W/L ratio of a transistor is 1 or 1000000..who the hell were the stupids who created these shit things..they were maniacs with nothing else to do in their life n certainly they were not living in the 21st century where life is anyday much more than some crap engineering project...

it was a mistake pursuing engineering,dropping an year n in the process making my life hell for 2+1+4=7 years..and i just want a bloody IIM seat to prove to some people that there is life beyond a shit engineering degree n its not the only way to achieve success as opposed to your restricted viewpoints...
FROM NOW NOW ITS MY LIFE & BLOODY MY DECISIONS & not someone else's..
i have had enough shitting around with my life..its time to lay things damn straight & clear..i will not tolerate even a single interference in my personal space..

& then i reached home..and ate some seriously delicious food cooked by mom n everything just evaporated from my mind..
till tuesday night,i will atleast be off the boil...
the worst part about reaching ur destination is that once you reach,the countdown starts as to when u have to go back..

so my conclusion here is that the best part is between leaving pilani & reaching home coz u have an anticipation of hapiness,a mind free of any tension of averages,cgpa's,marks,tutes & what not...

IN BETWEEN & LOVING IT!!!

blabbering bubbleheads

2009-09-23T23:49:00.004+05:30

So what is it about BLABBERING BUBBLEHEADS that women in the world cannot resist?

At P^3 funded ,LAYBOY LABS, we are committed to research in emerging areas.
After two years of intense studies, our scientists have come up with the following results:

In a startling revelation, it was shown that the women-babbling attraction is caused by stimulation of the girl's exposed skin by the reagents in a bubblehead's saliva..

The phenomenon, known as SALIVA Fetish, works as follows:

blabbering for a long time causes expansion of the sebacious glands due to excessive salivation. These swelled up glands start manufacturing concentrated amounts of strongly bonded larger organic molecules.
These molecules, which resemble the C-60 Fullrene, are known as Bi-Alkylated-Laevorotatory-Lacto-Spheres (BALLS).

On the other hand, the skin of women dressed up in minimal clothing becomes overly sensitive due to critical exposure to the atmosphere.
A typical model in revealing clothes was found to have a much higher concentration of the compund Bi-Oxy Ozono Butane (BOOB) on her skin, which acts as a receptor site.

When the BALLS molecules in the babbler's stinking saliva are dispersed in the air, they are adsorbed by the BOOBS receptors on the model's skin where they act as pheromones, leading to intense stimulation.

The entire process can be summarized by the equation:

With the above scientific knowledge, our scientists hypothesized the following typical first conversations between the two:

Scenario 1

Boy: What do you do?
Girl: I show off my body in skimpy outfits. And what do you do?
Boy: I shout into a rectangular pieced object..
Girl: We are both so grown up and mature.lets ...

Scenario 2

Girl: You look tired.
Boy: I've been talking with these balls all day long.
Girl: But there's no one else on the field.
Boy: I like to play with myself.
Girl: Maybe I can join you. Will you teach me?
Boy: Sure. Do you want to know how I bend it?

And that is how it usually starts.

That done, we are now working on determining the future prospects for some other babbling bubbleheads.

RESPECT THE RED!!!!!

2009-09-23T18:10:00.001+05:30

Note : This article is about the color red on Gtalk status messages.

If you are a Manchester United fan, you were probably looking for this.
If you are a communist desperate for respect, go here.
अगर आपकी मंगल की महादशा चल रही है तो कृपया यहाँ जाएँ.
End of Note

Good looking people will never stop ruining my happiness.
This time, they've made a mockery of my privacy.

Here's how it happened.

In this world, there are good looking girls. (A)
Also in this world, there are desperate men. (B)
And in any closed system, B's purpose of existence is to stalk A.

In the beginning there was A.
And one day, Google made Gtalk.
A logged onto Gtalk. She was green.
And for a time, it was good.

But soon, Bs found her out, and the next time she logged in, she had a hundred "hi wassup?" messages from Bs.

She had a little conversation with all the Bs, and politely made an excuse to shoo them away. It is, after all, the moral responsibility of every good looking girl in the world to be nice to people to prevent unnecessary testostoronal loss of life.

The Bs didn't understand; they were rather encouraged; they didn't give up.
When A had had enough, she turned red.
And a wise move it was.
Half the Bs thought A was busy and stopped buzzing,
And there came a time when A was always red.
Obscurity had come to the rescue.

Soon, Red became the new Green.

The other Bs, however, got the trick.
How dare she take away their right to harass pretty girls!
How dare she try to outsmart them to be just left alone!
Busy or not, their "hey how r u?" continued.

And so started the race..
And in the quest of staying one step ahead of her stalkers, A used Pidgin and turned yellow.
And Bs responded with their timed 5-minute-ly "hey u thr?"s
And A had to eventually give in every time.

And then one day, A turned invisible.
And then, there was relief.
She could finally hit on her chocolate boys in peace.

I still believe in the orthodox teachings of Google: the three Colors,
When I'm busy I innocently set my status to Red.
But people just ignore it and buzz me anyway.

I write DND next to the red,
And some continue to ignore it and buzz me anyway.

I take the effort to remove the abbreviation and make it Do not Disturb. Busy means Busy.
And somehow,sm random A-h*** still manages to buzz me anyway.

Now, either A-h*** is an atrocious disgrace to comprehending the English language or,
In time, the common man has just got used to the mockery of colors done by good looking people.

It is, I believe, the latter.
Today, it doesn't matter what color your status is.
If you're on the list, you'll be bugged.

Good looking people have screwed us up once again.
And this, we believe, is blasphemy and must come to an end, lest we anger the lords.

However, something good has come out of it as well.
Good looking girls, in doing so, have provided us a foolproof way of finding out how good-looking any girl is.. from only her Gtalk status.

Its quite simple to figure out as well.
In every status, the girl says a story.

I'm fat, ugly and desperate.
Or, I'm lonely and vulnerable.

I have a stalker.
Or, I'm just an ugly friend of a hot one.

I'm popular and attractive.
Or, I'm just asleep.

I'm Hot.
And, I'm actually busy hitting on someone else right now.

IF I NEVER ....

2009-09-20T23:42:00.003+05:30

ONCE AGAIN I FIND MYSELF LOST IN YOU,
ALL MY FRIENDS SAY I AM JUST A FOOL,
EVEN NOW,WHEN I THINK OF ALL THE TIMES WE SHARED,
& I HOPE YOU ARE THINKING OF ME,
& THE WAY THAT IT USED TO BE..
SO IF I NEVER LOVE AGAIN,
IT WUDN'T BE THE HARDEST THING TO DO,
COZ EVERYTHING I WOULD EVER SEE,
WOULD ONLY BE,
IMAGES OF YOU..
IF I NEVER LOVE AGAIN,
ATLEAST I WOULD HAVE THE DREAMS YOU LEFT BEHIND,
& IF THAT'S ALL IT'LL BE,
THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME..
EVERY NIGHT I SOMETIMES SEE INTO THE SKY,
& I TRY TO FORGET ABOUT THE DAY WE SAID GOODBYE,
& EVEN NOW WHEN I THINK OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE,
ONE THING THEY CUDN'T DO,
IS TOUCH ME THE WAY YOU DO...
SO IF I NEVER LOVE AGAIN,
IT WUDN'T BE THE HARDEST THING TO DO,
COZ EVERYTHING I WOULD EVER SEE,
WOULD ONLY BE,
IMAGES OF YOU..

christian history of the name 'SERAPHIM'

2009-09-17T21:44:00.002+05:30

God surrounded by seraphim. From the Petites Heures de Jean de Berry, a 14th-century illuminated manuscript. Courtesy of the Bibliothèque nationale de France: [1]

In medieval Christian neo-Platonic theology, the Seraphim belong to the highest order, or angelic choir, of the hierarchy of angels. They are said to be the caretakers of God's throne.
seraphim appear more than once in the Book of Enoch[1] where they are designated as drakones,and are mentioned, in conjunction with the cherubim, as the heavenly creatures standing nearest to the throne of God.
Seraphim literally means "burning ones" in the Hebrew.
Seraphim make their first Christian appearance in the Book of Revelation iv. 6-8, where they are forever in God's presence and praising Him constantly: "Day and night they never stop saying: 'Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was, and is, and is to come.'

In the Areopagite in his Celestial Hierarchy (vii), the Seraphim are described as being concerned with keeping Divinity in perfect order, and not limited to chanting the trisagion.

With the revival of neo-Platonism in the academy formed around Lorenzo de' Medici, the seraphim took on a mystic role in Pico della Mirandola's Oration on the Dignity of Man (1487), the epitome of Renaissance humanism. Pico took the fiery Seraphim—"they burn with the fire of charity"—as the highest models of human aspiration: "impatient of any second place, let us emulate dignity and glory. And, if we will it, we shall be inferior to them in nothing", the young Pico announced, in the first flush of optimistic confidence in the human capacity that is the coinage of the Renaissance. "In the light of intelligence, meditating upon the Creator in His work, and the work in its Creator, we shall be resplendent with the light of the Cherubim. If we burn with love for the Creator only, his consuming fire will quickly transform us into the flaming likeness of the Seraphim."

As they were developed in Christian theology, seraphim are beings of pure light and have direct communication with God. They resonate with the fire symbolically attached to both purification and love. The etymology of "seraphim" itself comes from the word saraph. Saraph in all its forms is used to connote a burning, fiery state. Seraphim, as classically depicted, can be identified by their having six wings radiating from the angel's face at the center.

KEEPING FAITH

2009-09-16T17:04:00.007+05:30

3rd april 2005,school bus,just before the first final exams..i remember it still...some memories are non-erasable from life's canvas..
& then i also remember 16th july,2009...IRONICAL but true...

Its upon the time when you become superstitious
you look at the sky with eyes fictitious,
when things go wrong and you are misunderstood,
you like no studies,no outing,no food
Its a broken heart which seeks some help
my dear,being discouraged is the first wrong step
God is the one we are the children of,
His will is our action,
our parent's will is his satisfaction
I tell you
our life is like his company,his enterprise,
sometimes he makes it bear a loss,
makes us sad so as to earn goodwill & permanent clientele.
This represents long term gain and happiness.
Whenever you think you are wrong,
ask the almighty to make it shallow
and make your love strong.
but when you know your thoughts are pure
maybe you'll have to wait but get solace for sure
its no point thinking what for and why should it happen to you
as God is above all and he is really unbiased,to the ones you think are few
miracles which happen may seem to be shining
But every black cloud has a silver lining.
your sanctum's goodwill will reach and affect
to the one you care,your friend,to the one deserving your respect.
difficulties,problems,sadness,cheatings,as you can understand,
are in the form of emotions when laid on life's sand,
act as RESTORING FORCES
Yes they do,and you know as a result what bounces back!-
a smile,some happiness and pure joy.
just as you can imagine a 'kick me toy'
this is life's only ritual
despair is what never comes single
it brings gaiety which is not very far away
these are reciprocals of your good deeds,and take my word for it,are about to come your way
all the above lines are yet not just literature
but somwhere,sometime are wittnessed are witnessed by every good creature
and just for the simple reason that God blessed you with this life,
and in fact each one of us,we ought to be good in heart and nature,
& approach each dawn as a chance to live a LIFETIME!!

Lord Voldermort V/S VDD (SHE-WHO-MUST-NOT-BE-NAMED)

2009-09-14T18:34:00.012+05:30

Another wednesday is looming large ahead and hence i felt it imperative to hit back with another post on VDD..this time around though,it would be a comparison between the evil ways of VDD and Lord Voldermort..
for those ignorant ones who don't know voldermort,i would give his intro rt nw.
he is the evil Wizard in the now legendary HARRY POTTER series.he used to kill people with disdain and the sheer amount of fear that he commanded in the hearts of wizards,can be gauged from the fact that no one used to utter his name..he is referred throughout as HE-WHO-MUST-NOT-BE-NAMED.now wizards have a WAND & using it they implement their spells..
DEMENTORS are another thing that need to be introduced right now.they guard the PRISON OF AZKABAN,the wizarding equivalent of GUANTANAMO BAY (the US torture cell closed down recently on OBAMA'S orders..

now let us first assign a better & more respectable name to VDD.
its SHE-WHO-MUST-NOT-BE-NAMED .(SWMNBN)
now let us implore the ways in which SHE not only matches but also beats VOLDERMORT.
the parameters for this comparison are:
sheer disregard of human existence,
unfailing belief that the crueler you become,the more feared you are
and she is also the
recipient of the ignominious honour of recieving maximum respectful (you know the words) words from mankind.
while voldermort still had to use his wand syncronised with his mouth for the spell to take effect,
SHE just has to shout VDD,GM,RD and the whole bunch of around 300 odd innocent students refocus on her through their droopy eyes which have become emotionless under the sheer brutality of her ways.
but nowadays INTUITIVE thinking is topping the charts..

Now what is voldermort without his army of dementors..so coming to the dementors in our story..the TUTE-TEACHERS are the ones who are implementing the orders of SWMNBN.

now one very important trait of Voldermort is that wherever he is present,all the happiness vanishes from that place & gloom sets in..
in this HE is outrightly beaten by SWMNBN..even in her absence the amount of gloom in the hearts & minds of EEE/ENI studs is just too bloody clear..come to RAM BHAWAN,any tuesday night & enjoy the gloom show that climaxes early wednesday morning between 8:25 & 8:50 in some dungeon in FD-2..

but as the ending of harry potter suggests that GOOD always defeats EVIL (as voldermort dies in the ending),so shall it be,b'coz that's the law of nature..
WE JUST NEED A HARRY POTTER TO FIGHT BACK AND END THE EVIL REIGN.
:-))))))

DISCLAIMER:
THE ABOVE WORK IS A PIECE OF FICTION & ANY RESEMBLANCE TO ANY PERSON LIVING OR DEAD IS PURELY UNINTENTIONAL & CO-INCIDENTAL.

Hope--is all i am left with now!

2009-09-14T10:03:00.002+05:30

the art of obtaining BINARY MARKS!!!

2009-08-31T10:18:00.015+05:30

Have you ever experienced a run in which no matter what you do,irrespective of the denominator of your score (i.e. total marks),you somehow manage to obtain a BINARY SCORE every single time without fail..how do you master the BINARY GAME??
I don't think there are such great souls left on this planet..
Let me share the tips & tricks of being the stand-OUT performer in this BINARY GAME as I have been experiencing an almost similar run in 2 of my CDC's,MU-E & EDIC, plzz don't pronounce the latter in a vulgar or obscene way.
well first & foremost you need to have self-belief that you can actually achieve something of such great magnitude,however tough it might seem.
then you need to be accommodating in the lecture sessions.like in MU-E,i actually shut down my brain before entering the Lecture hall & restart it only when the monotonous & quite effective lullaby stops.I mean,how can anyone resist the charming appeal of a sudden spike in decibel levels (& i awake from my deep slumber),when VDD resonates across the lecture hall..no you just can,you give in to the temptation & sleep waiting for the periodic VDD alarm clock to ring again..

not that wz MU-E..now we move on to the other course, EDIC (i again warn all of you,not to pronounce it in a cheap &obscene way).
here its PRETTY simple & STRAIGHT...I give in to the charm of the first & most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my 3 years of captivity in BITS.
you don't go to the lecture that's filled with students but go to the other one,where a handful of innocent students come..(ME obviously included).
then sit at such an angle that without even moving your face,your eyes can cover the lecturer & the pretty damsel in one sweep..I have been mesmerized since my first workshop prac & all my first year wingies know it..but i am an innocent guy,so I don't look around much..
I admire transfixed throughout the lecture....obbbbbbbb...how can anyone be so sweet,smart & innocently pretty at the same time..she can give KIRSTEN STEWART a run for her money..you can just admire & admire & admire & .....
slowly even my wingie friend & blogger-foe(another obbbbb),is also learning this art..KUDOS..
& then when the time for tute tests come,you don't have to rack up your brain on some amplifier,transistor arranged in some obscene position or the other...

TRY this out in your own lecture halls & feel the joy that comes along when you master the TRICK OF BINARY SCORES & become a BINARY GODDDD....

P.S. locate a pretty damsel in a lecture hall near you soon..

DISCLAIMER:
THE ABOVE WORK IS A PIECE OF FICTION & RESEMBLANCE TO ANY PESON LIVING OR DEAD IS PURELY ACCIDENTAL & UNINTENTIONAL.

HAPPY ENDING!!!!!!!!

2009-08-29T13:32:00.003+05:30

every movie we see,every story we are told,
implores us to wait for it
the unexpected declaration of love,
the exceptions to rule,
but sometimes we are so focussed on finding our happy ending,
we don't learn how to read the signs,or rather forget them,
how to tell the ones who like us to the ones who don't,
the ones who 'll stay to the ones who will leave,
maybe this happy ending doesn't include someone,
maybe its you,on your own,
picking up the pieces & starting over,
freeing yourself up for something better in the future,
maybe the happy ending is just MOVING ON,
& maybe the happy ending is this,
moving through all the in-between phone calls & mails,
through all the blunder & misread signals,
through all the pain & setbacks,
YOU NEVER EVER GAVE UP HOPE!!!!!!!!!!

After Monday & Tuesday, even the week says WTF!!!!

2009-08-24T10:39:00.005+05:30

'MONDAY was assumed to be the day we are most miserable,but as it turns out,WEDNESDAY is the worst day of the week.'

That’s the claim of two American applied mathematicians, who analysed words used in 2.4 million internet blogs & networking sites like Twitter, giving a score out of nine depending on how positive they were.
Professors Christopher Danforth and Peter Dodds, of Vermont University, gave words like free, fun, rainbow and sex 8+ score, while words such as betray, cruel, hatred and suffocate all scored less than two.
Saturday and Sunday rated predictably well but, most shockingly, Monday came out as the second happiest day of the week, partly because people were still reminiscing about the weekend.

However by Wednesday, these feelings had subsided. & closer home,in PILANI we have MU-E tutes at 8:00 in the morning.I have never had such a gr8 start to a wednesday,ever in my life.being taught in such a intresting fashion,with slides running in the background,leaves you feeling exploited & exhausted.but when you face a 25min test where you know nothing even though you are allowed to go through the notes & book,is a different kind of torturous experience.

"The weekends tend to be fairly happy and Wednesday turned out to be the saddest day." That's the expert analysis which conforms to the analysis of every 3rd year EEE or ENI student in bits..

results of study taken from:
http://www.4to40.com/newsat4/index.asp?id=2918&news=Vermont_University

ALIVE & KICKING!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-18T22:21:00.003+05:30

I feel so calm & relieved for the first time in years.saying everything that you have been holding up for years does bring with itself,a serene calmness in your life..the turbulent times are now a thing of the past..
i wish i had done this earlier.just shown an ounce more courage..
through all this,one thing i have learnt is that we all stand ALONE in our life,our struggles & our achievements..being self-dependent emotionally is perhaps the most important trait that we must imbibe before its too late..
now finally i have a calm life to look ahead to,with my only job being,to study & conquer the world..
& i will do exactly that.these stupid emotional things are useless & worthless..
moving ahead leaving the disappointments behind,is perhaps the easiest thing to do..
i don't feel even for a second,that i did anything wrong..i am perhaps the most satisfied person on this earth at present..
simla rocked and now its CDC time in pilani..but no complaints,what's life without some stiff challenges!!!
BRING IT ON!!!
the spontaneity & unpredictability is back in my life with no brooding over anything..
LIFE ROCKS..
adieu revoir!!!!!!!!!

DAWNING REALITY!!!

2009-08-08T13:52:00.004+05:30

Looking skywards through your beautiful eyes,
YOU notice the sun shining brightly in the blue sky,
but what you seldom notice & generally miss,
is what it scorches & burns,as it shines by.

Looking inwards,examining your soul,
as YOUR conscience questions YOUR decision,
YOU will often miss,what lies hidden beneath the obvious,
what WE destroyed & left behind,
as WE moved on.

But Oneday,Someday,
when YOU are swimming upstream,
when YOU are sleeping awake,
when YOU have a dry kind of thirst even as YOU get drenched,
when YOU are backtracking forward,
when YOU are smiling as YOU mourn,
when YOU notice the shadows on sunny days,
when YOU are on the brink,as you climb,
when YOU try to hide the obvious even as REALITY DAWNS,
YOU will draw level & realize what I went through & concluded,
WE can never predict how the NEXT DAY LIFE COULD BE.

GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE!!!

2009-08-03T18:09:00.002+05:30

you are scared, u'll fall,
sometimes it seems impossible,
but your hopes & dreamz,
are closer than they seem,
Why not,give yourself a chance,
nothing z gonna hold u back,
everything YOU want z right there waiting.
What u wanna do,
gotta have some faith in YOU,
don't YOU know,YOU can have it all,
If YOU try & just believe,
YOU can,YOU will,
reach the SKY!!

the moment of awakening 23:08 hrs...23rd june,09

2009-06-24T00:53:00.007+05:30

this could well be the bend in the road that i was searching for.after a barrage of nicholas sparks novel were gobbled up by me..10 to be precise inside 9 days..
i have finally been able to pull ahead of the things that have kept pushing me back for the past months..its a complete change from the past..
now nobody can pull me back from the ultimate aim,mission WS..
goenka has been like a catalyst in this process..hats off to the PHOENIX who has risen from the ashes..

now back to me & my transformed perspective of life..don't give a fuck about the peripherals..they suck bigtime..
YOU shouldn't expect anything from anyone.
i just wish the BEST for you,now & forever.
be the best in whatever you do..u were the most special thing in my life..
so as far as my MISSION WS is concerned,the first step which is probably the toughest has been taken..the plans have been executed perfectly within 65 minutes as opposed to the predicted 90..

i think,the impending turn of tides,has finally arrived with a bang..
mission WS will be a success against all odds..wtf,nothing can deter me now..
only a few times in one's life,does the realization washover in such prfect synchronization,that you truly start believing in transforming the dream into a reality..

and make no mistake MISSION WS will be executed to perfection with the help of PHOENIX..a day-to-day update system is being put in place for the purpose of the mission not getting lost,in the frantic pace that will be a part of my life,come august..

and yeah,how can i forget my acquaintance of 9days,nicholas sparks,he rocks mannn..
throwing a totally different perspective in front of my eyes..i just have to finish 3more novels and then i would have read his entire work..
the true believer,at first sight (THESE 2 NOVELS ARE IN CONTINUATION)
the notebook,the wedding,
dear john,
message in a bottle,
bend in the road,
the choice,
the guardian,
A walk to remember
nights in rodanthe..
this should be the ideal order of reading the greatest masterpiece i have ever come across..
the rescue,three weeks with my brother,the lucky one are presently not read hence i will be adding them in the subsequent days..

every MBA aspirant must read THE JOKER IN THE PACK..it just refreshes your perspective towards MBA,ife after MBA & the most important for us guys,it boosts the enthu required for MBA preparation..
while i say this,i must also warn you not to read KEEP OF THE GRASS,coz it will do just the opposite to you in terms of mba prepn,etc etc..

FOR THE KNOWN,ABOUT THE UNKNOWN!!!!!!!!

2009-06-07T14:54:00.003+05:30

I miss you, my dearest, as I always do, but today is
especially hard because the wind has been singing to me, and the song is that of our life together.

I can almost feel you beside me as I write this letter, and I can smell the scent
of wildflowers that always reminds me of you.

But at this moment, these things give me no pleasure.
and
I feel sometimes as if the greatest part of who I am is slowly slipping away.

I am trying, though. At night when I am alone, I call for you, and whenever my ache seems to be the greatest, you still seem to find a way to return to me.

Last night, in my dreams,
I saw you on the pier near a serene Beach. The wind was
blowing through your hair, and your eyes held the fading sunlight.
I am struck as I see you leaning against the rail.
You are beautiful, I think as I see you, a vision that I can never find in anyone else.
I slowly begin to walk toward you,
and when you finally turn to me, I notice that others have been watching you as well.
"Do you know her?" they ask me in
jealous whispers, and as you smile at me, I simply answer with the truth. "Better than my own heart."

I stop when I reach you and take you in my arms. I long
for this moment more than any other. It is what I live for and when you return my embrace, I give myself over to this moment, at peace once again.

I raise my hand and gently touch your cheek and you tilt your head and close your eyes.
My hands are hard and your skin is soft, and I wonder for a moment if you'll pull back,
but of course you don't. You never have, and it is at times like this that I know what my purpose is in life.

I am here to love you, to hold you in my arms, to protect you.
I am here to learn from you and to receive your love in
return.
I am here because there is no other place to be.

But then, as always, the mist starts to form as we stand close to one another.
It is a distant fog that rises from the horizon, and I find that I grow fearful as it approaches.
It slowly creeps in, enveloping the world around us, fencing us in as if to prevent escape. Like a rolling cloud, it blankets everything, closing, until there is nothing left but the two of us.

I feel my throat begin to close and my eyes well up with tears because I know it is time for you to go.
The look you give me at that moment haunts me.
I feel your sadness and my own loneliness, and the ache in my heart that had been silent for only a short time grows stronger as you release me.

And then you spread your arms and step back into the fog because it is your place and not mine.
I long to go with you, but your only response is to shake your head because we both know that isimpossible.

And I watch with breaking heart as you slowly fade away.
I find myself straining to remember everything about this moment, everything about you.
But soon, always too soon, your
image vanishes and the fog rolls back to its faraway place and I am alone on the pier and I do not care what others think as I bow my head and cry and cry and cry.

the vacations are here to stay!!!!

2009-05-21T15:18:00.003+05:30

"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending"

finally a post about the goin on in my life..its vacation time and i am chilling out in delhi..
after a tortorous semester as usual,this feels like paradise..
listening to enrique on max vol,watching ipl till late nights..now this is what i call life..
not the one we live out in pilani..waking up to finish our course..
now its 2months of training..the focus shifts to jaipur from day after tomorrow..
i am hell bent on cashing in on these vacations so this chill out will continue unabated..
some strategic moves need to be executed also..for the greater good..
let us see how it shapes out..
this is the life we all yearn and now is the chance to live out..
lemme catch up with some more fun..
blogging can wait for sometime..
after all its DELHI,the national capital..
catch you guys later with some interesting news..

FAKE IPL PLAYER||| NICKNAMES OF IPL PLAYERS(UPDATED 19TH MAY)

2009-04-24T11:24:00.013+05:30

http://fakeiplplayer.blogspot.com
has become quite a phenomena,what with a full second page TOI article on it!!
way to go, for the creator..
decoding the names might be difficult for some,so here is the list with the respective proud recipients of the gr8 names..
enjoy!!!!

1) Kishen Kanaiyya refers to Ravi Shastri.

2) Appam Chuthiya refers to Sreeshanth he comes from kerala where appam is the famous delicacy and fakeiplplayer is calling him bcoz of his attitude.

3) Paedophile Priest refers to Adam Gilchrist.

4) Kaan Moolo referes to Ajit Agarkar coz i think all of you would know,it’s for his enormous ears.

5) Big Sister refers to Shilpa Shetty coz she rose to fame using the big brother reality show.

6) Prince Charles of Patiala refers to Yuvraj Singh coz i think its anyone’s guess well he is from punjab and worshipped like a king there,probably one more reason the author likes him.

7) Lord Almighty refers to Sourav Ganguly , once again here the writer has shown his liking for ganguly so has raised him from the status of prince to lord himself.

8. Babli/bubbly refers to Preity Zinta as she is ever refreshing and encouraging her team.

9) Calypso King refers to Chris Gayle as he is considered the king of Caribbean in the world of cricket.

10) Badshah Dildo refers to Sharukh Khan coz as far as my research says it is due to his interefering or poking behaviour and also the atmost hate of this writer towards Shahrukh.

11) Hawaii Chappal refers to Greg Chapel coz of his surname ‘Chapel’ —> ‘Chappal’ and havai as prefix to show how ‘local’ he is.

12) Junta Tormentor refers to Ajantha Mendis coz of his abnormal bowling action which has tormented batsmen around the world.

13) The Baja of Baroda refers to Anshuman Gaekwad coz he is from baroda is the simple guess i suppose.

14) Sandy Baddy babe refers to Mandira Bedi coz she is a female who has nothing like a babe but still is acting like one.

15) Little John refers to Ishant Sharma ,its just a paradox to refer.

16) John Wrong refers to John Wright, ,its just a paradox to refer.

17) Bangla Tiger refers Mashrafe Mortaza coz he is from Bangaldesh and ‘tiger’ coz the author likes him.

18)Sheikh of Tweak refers to Shane Warne.

19) Meera Bhai refers to Harbhajan Singh.

20) RDB refers to Randeep Bose.

21) Ram refers to VVS Laxman.

22) Chatterjee Kaaku refers to The Old Guy from the Ad posted by the KKR(Kolkata Knight Riders) Team where he says ‘Tum Bhi Jeetoge’.

23) Mr.Batlivala refers to liqour baron Mr Vijay Mallya

24) Phoren Babas refers to Brendon Mc Cullum and the coach John Buchanan

25) bhooka naan is john buchannan..the similarity in pronounciation is a hint.

26)shakespere is aakash chopra & ganji hanger is sanjay bangar..

27)bunty is brett lee...

28)Boy George - BRAD HODGE

29)Style bhai spinner - Murali kartik

30)Gilli Danda: Ashok Dinda

32)Mangal Pandey: LR Shukla

33)little sister is shamita shetty (shilpa's young sis)

34) varsha goggle is harsha bhogle

35)kameez pyajama is rameez raja

36) aila is sachin tendulkar..

37)vakil saab is sangakkara,as pointed out by a fellow blogger..

38)sticky is ricky ponting

39)sheru is virendra sehwag..

40)cool dude is m.s. dhoni

41)deewar is rahul dravid..universally known fact!!!

42)pussy is david hussey..

43)hanky panky is harsha bhogle44)chinnu popli is virat kohli

44)Candy Nickel - Andy Bichel

45)Lady Jaya - Jayawardene

46)Arnold Power - Ramesh Powar

47)Castro - Fidel Edwards

48)Springbok - Morne Van Wyk

49)Ghati Baba - Rohit Sharma

50)Deegrah Patan - Irfan

51)Re-Peter - Peterson

52)RVR Singh / Pamela Inder Singh - VRV Singh

53)Bevdaa - Jessie Ryder

54)Peter Ka Beta – Pietersen

55)Mira Bhai - Harbhajan Singh

56)Junta/ Junta Tormentor - Ajanta Mendis

57)Boy George - Joy Bhattacharya, CEO of KKR. Some people are also guessing “Brad Hodge

58)Sparrow / Parrott - McGrath

59)Saala Slimeball - Lalit Modi

60)Panty Curry - Robin Uthappa

61)Akram Azam – Kamran Khan

62)Bubaan – Arindam Ghosh

63)Joker – Chang (of Indian Idol fame)

64)Messiah – Steve Waugh (Aussie player with very close ties to Kolkata – Udayan)

teams referred in the story :

Bevdaa Team refers Bangalore Royal Challengers coz its owned by the liquor giant vijay mallya(batlivala).

Big Sister’s team refers to Rajasthan Royals coz owned by shilpa shetty.

Bubblie’s Team refers to Punjab Kings XI coz owned by preity zinta.

desis is reffering to the mumbai indians..

Dhakkans - Deccan Chargers

dilwalas refers to delhi daredevils..

Well guyz as soon as he comes out with other characters i would update it over here.So keep a regular check on this site for updates.

DISCLAIMER:
ALL THESE ARE PURELY BASED ON THE STORY PUT UP AT FAKEIPLPLAYER.BLOGSPOT.COM AND THESE MIGHT BE FICTIOUS. THIS IS NOT TO HURT ANYBODY’S FEELING. THIS IS JUST A INFO TO CATCH UP WITH THE HOTTEST NEWS ON THE INTERNET.

WHY ARE YOU ATTRACTED TO A PERSON YOU KNOW ISN'T GOOD???

2009-04-16T16:03:00.004+05:30

b'coz YOU are hoping that YOU are wrong & everytime she does something that tells YOU she is no good,YOU ignore it
&
every time she comes through & surprises you,she wins YOU over & YOU lose the argument with yourself that she is not for YOU

wanna know how YOU feel?

YOU begin to understand feelings,as small as as insignificant as humanly possible
& how it can actually ache in places YOU never knew,YOU had inside YOU
& it doesn't matter how many new haircuts YOU get
or
how many walks YOU go
or
how many times YOU hangout with your friends,

YOU still go to bed every night,going over every detail & wondering what YOU did wrong or how could YOU have misunderstood

AND HOW IN THE HELL,FOR THAT BRIEF MOMENT COULD YOU THINK THAT YOU WERE SO HAPPY
&
sometimes YOU even convince yourself that she will see the light
&
feel YOUR sigh
&
show up at YOUR door

and after all THAT,however long THAT maybe

YOU will go somewhere new,
and YOU will meet people who will make YOU feel worthwhile again,
and little pieces of YOUR soul shall finally come back,
and all that fuzzy stuff
those years of YOUR life that YOU WASTED
that would eventually begin to fade
& YOU would start living again,like YOU used to ages ago..

my faith in you is fading!!!

2009-04-16T09:33:00.002+05:30

time,i have been patient for so long..
how can i pretend to be so strong..

fading away slowly but surely,you will never be forgotten..
i will wait till the end and beyond for you..

cant help but marvel at your heartlessness..
never expected this from you..

you will realize one day,surely,that you were wrong in going away from the person who loved you more than anyone will ever love you in your lifetime...

adieu revoir!!!!

FOR THE GIRL WHOM I HAVE NEVER SEEN BUT I ONLY DREAM!!!

2009-03-27T19:25:00.005+05:30

Just for that special someone..who often drops in my dreams...
just for that special someone who resides in the depth of my heart....
just that special someone!

WHOM I WILL MEET SOMEDAY AND MY LIFE WOULD CHANGE FOREVER..

I Thought I'd Never Find You...
"I searched for you all my life...
the long missing piece of my life's curious puzzle,
the voice that whispers softly in my dreams,
the music that echoes and dances in my mind,
the living poem that speaks to my inner soul,
the other part of my being that makes me whole.
I searched for you everywhere...

on lonely windswept beaches in the first light of dawn
when solitude screamed loudly in my ears,
on crowded city streets in the press of haste and hurry
when everyone but me had somewhere else to go,
in a church's quietude where love and peace abide
and prayer is sometimes answered
I sought your face.

I searched inside my heart, in the emptiness of oneness,
where the meaning of fulfillment was not clearly defined,
and the purpose of my life remained a question to be answered,
longing only for acceptance and the simple joy of sharing,
I tried to find the patience to wait for you forever,
though I didn't know your face or the color of your eyes.

And just when I thought I'd surely never find you,
in a single missing heartbeat, you appeared...
and the endless hours of searching,
and the endless days of waiting,
and the endless nights of longing
were transformed when first our eyes met
to the promise of forever.

slowly fading into oblivion!!!

2009-03-24T23:01:00.002+05:30

the good times just get fast tracked in my life and the tough ones just seem to elongate as far as i can see on the horizon..as much as i try,things dont go my way and i have grown used to it now..its perhaps accepted as a foregone conclusion by me nowadays..
i am slowly but surely chopping away at the very relationships that made me what i am today and i cant understand how am i doing it..i have tried everything i could think of to save myself before its too late,but i guess its out of my control..
slowly but surely i am trying to find my footing without any backup...
what's happening i just can't say..clawing my way back at happiness but constantly slipping back..
i just wish that atleast some things start going fine soon coz it takes a lot out of me to stand up and face the setbacks one after the other from unexpected quarters..
oblivion doesn't seem far away from me now and the speed at which i am hurtling towards it,is alarming me..
sometimes giving it all up seems quite a good option..but need to fight on..

Grass on Fire ..: Rohit Kumar will be remembered.

2009-03-23T22:06:00.002+05:30

Grass on Fire ..: Rohit Kumar will be remembered.

just click the above link..

this is a true story about how the ineffectiveness of the administration and inadequate facilities at IIT-KHARAGPUR resulted in the death of a 3-year electronics engg student there...
and it is among the top-5 engg colleges in our country..
GOD SAVE THIS COUNTRY...
saarvi in bits-pilani..does it ring a bell in every bitsian's ear???

encountering dual personalities!!!!

2009-03-08T12:23:00.003+05:30

life is a complex process that we undergo and the characters you encounter make the experience good or bad..how do you decode individuals when they transform every few days..how do you recognise the real one..
we are always circumspect initially in any relationship of any type..but as type goes on and we become free and our belief grows,this wall of protection comes crashing down..
we start believing blindly and without any rhyme or reason..
and that's where we falter..that's when the knockout punch is landed by the so called acquaintance..
we were born alone and we oughtnot to be so attached to anyone that our sadness and happiness hinges so much on someone else..
we need to move on in life and learn from the mistakes we make..
being detached and a little self centered helps i guess..
being rational and following our head rather than the heart stands us in good stead more often than not..
but somethings are uncompromisable..
some people are unavoidable..
some relationships are too valuable to give the boot..
some people do shape your happiness even if we dont like it..
how do we encounter them??
I DUNNO!!!
maybe be careful in choosing acquaintances in future coz some people have such a huge impact in our lives,and leave such a massive footprint in our journey of life,that we can't forget them ever..
LIFE'S LIKE THIS!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE???

2009-03-03T19:24:00.005+05:30

do you believe when:
i say that i tried moving on but then realised that i will never be able to move on,
that i never felt this way before and don't wanna ever feel it again,
that i tried to block you out of my mind but you came back even stronger,
that i have this strong conviction that maybe
oneday,someday you will see the love in my heart which will never die,
that i still marvel at how you couldn't see through my heart all these years,
that you are my past,my present and i can assure you,my future also,
even if we part ways midway in this journey called life,
you will forever remain my final destination,
that you will live on forever in this heart and its every beat will be a tribute to my unending love for you,
that if only you could put yourelf in my place and understand my feelings,
that i believe i can't make you fall in love till you actually yourself choose to,
that i can't risk this beautiful relationship we share,for professing my love,
that life without you, for me, will be like a tree without its roots,
that you should stop for a moment and look back,and see if you will find someone who will love you as much as i do,
that i really love you but maybe would never be able to say it,for the fear of losing you again,
that maybe it no more depends on me,coz this is all the love that i ever could and would give to anyone,
that maybe i should try being what is expected of me and not what i want to be,
that I WILL LOVE YOU no matter what happens,till the very end...
that i feel afraid of the consequences of writing all this but it is really tough hiding all this,
when you fall in true love you will realize what i mean,
that I really can't predict how you may react to this but please be a little considerate,
that i still have every piece of your writing that you ever gave me safely in my secret place in my room,
and if you,say "I DO" to any one of these,i would have enough happiness for this lifetime!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOMEDAY!!!!!!

2009-01-17T13:37:00.003+05:30

"It's not having what you want,
It's wanting what you've got."

"To do something you haven't ever done,
you have to become a person you haven't ever been."

Somewhere over the rainbow, way up high, there's a land that I heard of once in a bedtime story.
Somewhere over the rainbow,skies are blue and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
Some day I'll wish and wake up where the clouds are far behind me, where troubles melt like lemondrops and blow away through the chimney tops.
That's where I'll find myself someday.
Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds will fly once again.
someday the golden rising sun will peep and smile throught the clouds..
someday each of my DREAMS will transform into reality..
someday i will be complete..
till then i'll work hard for that day...SOMEDAY..

CIRCLE OF TIME IS COMPLETE NOW!!!!!

2009-01-11T19:28:00.006+05:30

ONE OF THE BEST VACATIONS HAS SADLY ENDED and a new semester has started and with seven new subjects to handle,the rosy picture is more or less crystal clear..right now its a bit relaxed,still suffering from the hangover of a great HOLIDAY with all my loved ones..dancing(that's me dancing in the middle),playing cards,chatting all the time,roaming about aimlessly..this was just an amazing holiday..it was just too good to be true...
and now BITS-PILANI..the worst possible climax..

it really makes me wish,if somebody could create a time turner(read PRISONER OF AZKABAN by J.K.ROWLING)..we could just travel back to the good times and fast forward the bad ones..

can't remain so pessimistic so i need to face the facts,its a new start and hoping its a better semester..

MISSING HOME A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

INSPIRATION FOR NEW YEAR!!!!!!

2008-12-21T08:18:00.003+05:30

The world isnot all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it isnot how hard you hit; it’s about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done. Now, if you know what you’re worth, then go out and get what you’re worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain’t where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain’t you. You’re better than that.

It all boils down to the debate of Ends v/s means .The end can always justify the means. But each and everything you do may not be focused towards achieving the means.
Achieving the End is like the Tour de France. You may not win every stage, you may not always wear the yellow jersey, but in the end the one who endures and comes out on top collectively is the Winner.
Faith can move mountains. Just keep faith

HOLLYDAYS!!!!

2008-12-21T06:53:00.003+05:30

what fun & masti i am having these days is hard to express in words..catching up on movies..rab ne wz really funny,shahrukh in a new avtar..
busy buying loads of stuff for the upcoming days..watching the idiot box..and ya catching up wid old frenz..

there is something about school friends.
the relationship with school friends has an aura about itself.its unique in the comfort level you share with them.plus you can be sure that they have no ulterior motives in anything they say & do.u can't be selfish with them & neither are they.. school life shud never have ended,i think..just imagine---school,college all integrated at the same place..i dont think any of my frenz in pilani,would hate this idea..considering the amount of shit we have to face dr..ok,now one of my resolutions during these holidays is that i will not even think about pilani..so let's keep the topic aside..

blogging is addictive,i must say..it becomes a ritual sort of a thing,if you keep up with it...
now the christmas season is catching up here..cakes are all baked..its fun,during these times.

i am missing my blog fights with b'day boy baba..it gives a celeb feel..i mean,yaar,aamir khan & amitabh use these means to belittle others.it is a suttle & sophisticated way of hitting someone..

what else,hmmmmmm,songs on full volume,have a different feel altogether..especially for the neighbours,when they are sleeping..haaahaaahaaa...

morning walks in the cold have a different craze about them..

well i dont wanna sound pessimistic,but even as i punch in these words,these awesome times are getting exhausted,each passing second...so i think,i shud catch up with the more exclusive stuff here..
going out to my grandma's place for christmas,new year etc..so there might not me many posts till 6th jan..

MERRY CHRISTMAS & A JOYFUL NEW YEAR AHEAD TO ALL!!!!!!!

FOR MY BEST FRIEND!!!! NOW & 4EVER

2008-12-16T19:48:00.006+05:30

TRUE FRIENDS ARENOT THOSE WHO ENJOY THE GOOD TIMES WITH YOU,THEY ARE THE ONES WHO HELP YOU FACE THE TOUGH TIMES AND MAKE YOU REALIZE YOUR POTENTIAL AGAINST ALL ODDS.
i have been lucky enough to have found many such great friends,but one special school friend stands out..now that person is my phone-a-friend..
we didnot have contact after passing out from school for about one and a half years.but then our destinies again crossed paths and we are back in touch..
i dont know what was so special about this person that made me show respect like i have never had for anyone.even if i get angry when my friend doesn't message me or call me,i cant remain angry for long..max 24 hrs,after that i am back to my normal self...if i am asked to define a person without any blemish or in short a PERFECT FRIEND,it has to be..
Today is exactly an year since we talked again...so i had been writing this for MY FRIEND for quite some time coz i am not so blessed in my writing skills(B in report writing):

Your smile so sweet & bright
Kept me going
When day was as dark as night.

You understood my sorrow.
And gave me the hope of a better tomorrow.

You were always there for me,
Whenever I didn't know what to do.

You helped me learn to love myself
You made life seem so good.
You said I can do anything I put my mind to
And I had self-belief.

There were times when we didn't see eye to eye
And there were rare days when both of us fought.
But we made it through:
Our friendship stood the test of time.

Circumstances had pulled us apart,
Truly, the only thing that that i had,
wz the treasured memory of your smile.

This friendship we share
Is so precious to me,
I hope it grows and flourishes
And lasts forever.

You are so extra-special to me
You are my one true friend,

Our friendship is one-in-a-billion
So let's hold on to it.
For there will never be another.

OLDERPRENEURS--THE SUCCESSFUL ENTEPRENEURS

2008-12-16T15:58:00.006+05:30

“There is no age limit for entrepreneurial spirit”

One of Britain’s most successful entrepreneurs sails across the Atlantic, bunjee jumps down Las Vegas skyscrapers and attempts to circumnavigate the globe in a hot air balloon - while running a £3billion business empire. But he is no fresh-faced 20-year-old.

For Richard Branson, his 58 years are an advantage on younger entrepreneurs, giving him wily life skills and an understanding of the world that an 18-year-old would struggle to match.
MOST of the finest entrepreneurs are over 50: Bernie Eccleston(the godfather of formula one) 77; Sir Alan Sugar 61; Duncan Bannatyne 59; and Sir Philip Green 56.

Yet there is still a widespread feeling that entrepreneurial spirit is synonymous with youth. And this is something which businessmen in the West are keen to challenge.

Research shows that while only 28 per cent of companies started by young people make it past the first five years, those businesses started by the older generation have a 70 per cent survival rate.
these datas i have taken from the results of a survey by the PRINCE'S TRUST based in london.

on going through some of the government policies,i found an interesting point which was:backing & encouraging those over 50s to get involved in business.

in present times of recession it is even more vital that older people have the confidence to make their business ideas a reality..

SACHIN FINISHES MISSION-CHENNAI IN STYLE!!!

2008-12-15T16:33:00.005+05:30

the heartbreak when india lost to pakistan in chennai by some 10-20 runs even though sachin got a century is still vividly registered in my memory..
today he finished that unaccomplished by scripting india's most famous victory in many decades by chasing down 387 (the highest total chased by india since 406 in port of spain in 1976).the script couldn't have been better.the winning runs and sachin's 41st century coming of the lat ball of the match..

the ghost of mumbai's attack still continues to haunt every indian but this
'BOMBAY BOMBER' has shown the way to everyone..he has stood tall against all odds on a dustbowl and delivered..sachin has always been criticized for not being able to match up to his high standards n 2nd innings of a test match..crumbles under pressure..that was what the critics used to say..

but today he has proved to each one of these DOUBTING THOMASES that if you mess with TENDULKAR,then you will have to be prepared for his BATLASH..
kudos to sachin and also to the NAWAB OF NAJAFGARH for scripting the most famous victory in recent times..

FINALLY!!! BACK IN MY DEN......

2008-12-15T12:10:00.003+05:30

i am back to where i belong..my home,my parents and well,special friends....
after having a torrid time for 13days,its great having nothing to do and listening to songs on fulll volume,watching the ongoing indian run chase of nearly 400 runs,by no means easy..
and sleeping..yeah!!!

its now basically a time for me to choose my gifts,with both mt b'day(23rd dec,i hope u all remember this red letter day) and christmas...and gorging on tasty homemade delicacies..yummy...most of my friends presently on their journey back home as they are not as lucky as me,to be able to come home in 6hrs..
now its time to sit back and relax..see some new movies and enjoy life..

so for all you guys whose vacation has commenced,enjoy this time with even greater dedication than the way you approach the stinking and sucking comprees..(final exams)
will blog later..

gottacatch up with cricket rt nw,sachin is going great guns.
hope india pulls this one off for the mumbikars who have been though hell this past fortnight..

INCHING TOWARDS PRISON BRRREAAAKKK!!!!

2008-12-09T20:44:00.005+05:30

another hurdle crossed today..not exactly crossed...panting and puffing,crawled through mechsol..cant say what's in store.
next on the hitlist is DCN.our dear manjunath has one or 2aces up his sleeve this time around and he is keeping them close..
well i wont write any acad shit on my blog..
so coming to the topic..its approx 3.5 days to go and 800 exhausted souls(2nd yrs) will finally bask in the glory of surviving another deadly semester here,which was well,the lightest of all...i am constanly moving ahead of time and imagining life after 13th noon..god that wud be pleasure like anything.........
just 2more to go and it will be chequered flag for us...
waiting in desperation for the good times to come back and also enjoy christmas,birthday and everything else in life....

enjoying life is more improtant than shit grades

2008-12-07T21:50:00.004+05:30

well with comprees going on,this sort of a post is understandable..but this is quite a correct statement..
running after grades make life hell.i have done it for the past 4 months and the result is that life sucks bigtime..
grades are just secondary,living a life is more important as pranay pointed out correctly in his hitback post...
life will just become tough as we go on,so stop thinking about the future and enjoy the present..
college life wont come back,trying to excel all the time makes you hate life and that's not what i wanted..
its time i made amends to myself,to my mind...everyone has a capability..not all are equally endowed..i may be good at something,you might be good at something else..we shouldnot try to outrun ourselves and lose our identity in this mad race..
SO THE END RESULT IS THAT I WILL LIVE MY LIFE ON MY OWN TERMS,LET MY GRADES GO TO HELL..I HAVE TRIED AND TOILED MORE THAN I CAN TAKE..ITS TIME TO PUT A FULLSTOP AND LIVE LIFE WHICH I HAVENOT SINCE CLASS 11TH..

BITSIAN CHARACTERS EXPOSED!!!!

2008-12-04T22:53:00.005+05:30

well now that i have been giving gen blog posts for some time due to some time complexities,i think the trend needs to be reversed immediately...

i think a post about the interesting characters i interact with daily would not be a bad idea..

let us start with my best friend and roomie (last year) suman..great guy with an uncanny knack of using the most colourful words all the time,though these days he has become sadhu types..whose effect it is..hmmmmmmmm...his new obsession these days is modelling in front of his camera..

then comes vibhu goenka..my sidee(adjacent room) last year..used to be a light guy in 1st year but these days his string of TT's(test topper) and a recent CT(compree topper-german) has left everyone astounded..a die hard shahrukh fan..and well i must include this--the most enthusiastic CAT aspirant ever...if enthu wz the parameter,he wud be AIR-1 in CAT,anyday..

then we have TAFREEH..or our vivek jain..the night out god..inhe sawal lagane se phursat nahi milti..great guy at heart..always wishes the best for everyone..

in my new wing,we have ravi ramnath--a playboy in the making,who has recently become quite a bookworm..going great guns..though his new obsession of copying someone could prove fatal..i have warned him..

eshan swain a 10P last year,and who has suddenly made the discovery that life means nba,cricket07 and tt..

then we have rohit mittal(cracker with tons of brain),swayamjit and sonthalia(baby) who are always ready to help anyone..

last but far from least we have our BABA..pranay m.jain in his elements..very intelligent..what is his most striking feature..
well in winters its his green AL-QAIDA JACKET.his love for droppers is renowned all over the campus.please keep our environment clean and healthy..plzzz..
his only true love on campus-antonio..has to be..no doubt..suddenly ENI seems so much more...............

these are the people whom i kill time with,in pilani..

9 days to go and then all the POP's(prisoners of pilani) will be realeased from captivity..

26th------ A BAD OMEN FOR INDIA

2008-11-30T23:33:00.002+05:30

WHAT'S IN A NUMBER????

U MIGHT SAY BULLSHIT..BUT THE FOLLOWING WILL PROVE YOU WRONG!!!!!!

Similar to the Mumbai terror attack, many other disasters have earlier occurred in India on the same date: the 26th, although 13 is considered the most ominous number worldwide.

Tsunami struck India on December 26, 2004, Gujarat earthquake was on January 26, 2001, blasts rocked Guwahati on May 26, 2007, and the Ahmedabad blasts this year were on September 26 before the Mumbai attack on 26th of this month.

Numerologists and astrologers claim it's no coincidence. "Numerologically, the number 26 is a very unlucky number. 26 comes to 8 (2+6=8) which brings in destruction,"

This year, two terrorists strikes in India have been on the 26th. And another two on the 13th. Jaipur blast was on May 13 and Ahmedabad on July 26, followed by Delhi on September 13 and now Mumbai on 26th this month.

Earlier also, India has faced big attacks on the 13th. Serial blasts in Mumbai trains were on March 13, 2003 and Parliament was attacked on December 13, 2001.

SPOTLIGHT ON JAIPUR THIS DIWALI!!!!!!!!

2008-10-31T16:18:00.005+05:30

HAPPY DIWALI EVERYONE!!
JAIPUR IS KNOWN FOR HAVING THE MOST AMAZING LIGHTING DECORATIONS..
HERE ARE A FEW SELECT ONE'S ESPECIALLY FOR YOU..
ENJOY!!!!

BLOODHOUND SSC-(Mach 1.4)

2008-10-24T15:39:00.006+05:30

We all know what a BLOODHOUND is.But SSC means super sonic car.The BLOODHOUND SSC was developed over a period of 3 years by Richard Noble OBE & his team..

Its a 1000 mph car that aims to break the LAND SPEED RECORD.The rocket/car was displayed for the first time on 23rd october2008 at SCIENCE MUSEUM,LONDON.
to break the speed barrier,it will be driven by Wing Commander ANDY GREEN,who currently holds the same record (763 mph=1228 kmh) achieved at the controls of ThrustSSC on 15th October 1997.

The Bloodhound SSC is a rocket powered 12.8m long vehicle that's able to accelerate from 0-1050 mph in 40 seconds.if this vehicle achieves its target of 1000mph
(MACH 1.4),it will mark the greatest increase in the history of WORLD LANDSPEED RECORD;thereby exceeding the low altitude speed limit for aircraft(994 mph).

The 12.8m long,6422 kg(fuelled) vehicle has 900mm diameter wheels which will spin at 10,000 rpm, generating 50,000 radial g at the rim.At max velocity,thepressure of air bearing down carbon fibre & titaniumbodywork will exceed12 tonnes/square metre.

BLOODHOUND SSC is expected to be the catalyst for a raft of cutting-edge research in fields such as aerodynamics,computational fluid dynamics,materials technology,composite manufacturing and sustainable hi-tech engineering.

ODIGO PODCAST-now listen to the posts

2008-10-21T21:38:00.003+05:30

A new podcast has been added in this blog allowing all its readers the oppurtunity to relax their eyes and listen to the listed posts..
if u want to subscribe to the odigo podcast,the link is as under:
http://podcasts.odiogo.com/inside-the-realm-of-lifes-pathway/podcasts-html.php
and click on subscribe button..
then u can download the audio version of the posts..
i hope this will be a useful add-on for all the users..

THE FASTEST MAN ON THE CIRCUIT-HAMILTON,MASSA OR KUBICA???

2008-10-18T12:02:00.008+05:30

THE STAGE IS SET,THE LINES ARE DRAWN,AND NO FORMULA ONE FOLLOWER COULD HAVE ASKED FOR A BETTER SCRIPT FULL OF UNEXPECTED SURPRISES....

The FORMULA ONE season has entered the final lap with just two races remaining and the race to the top of the championship table is becoming messier and tougher each passing moment..with three clear contenders LEWIS HAMILTON(84 points),ROBERT KUBICA(72 points) & FELIPE MASSA(79 points) who can can give it a shot..

Tomorrow we have the penultimate race coming up..the CHINESE GRAND PRIX..if the last race held in the backdrop of MT.FUJI is any indication of the things to come,what with drive through penalties awarded to the top 2 racers,and a near collision between the two,things wont be any easy this time around also..

In the CONSTRUCTORS STANDING also,FERRARI (142 points) and McLAREN-MERCEDES(135 points) are also neck to neck..so the growing animosity between the two camps is quite understandable with both MASSA and RAIKKONEN engaged in a verbal duel with HAMILTON..

But with all the LIMELIGHT shared between them,the dark horse in this three way dash,ROBERT KUBICA might just grab the trophy from right under their nose,like it happened last year with HAMILTON losing out in the last two races and RAIKKONEN closing a 17 point deficit in the last two races to emerge the surprise winner..

the formula one fraternity is still feeling the void left by the 7-time world champion,MICHAEL SCHUMACHER retirement and with hamilton failing to drive home the advantage last year,however promising he might be,without a championship,he will not attain that immortal status..HAMILTON'S form has dipped a bit like last yeat with his 7th place finish in japan so the signs are ominious in more wayss than one for the McLaren camp..the margin for error is minimum and one manoeuvre is what it will take for him to lose out again..KUBICA on the other hand had a podium finish(2nd place) in japan and he is now 12 points adrift of the leader..so he may be licking his fingers in anticipation..MASSA is 5 points adrift and with the last race in brazil(home race),the overwhelming crowd support might just spur him on that extra bit like last year,when he became only the 2nd brazilian after the legendary ARYTON SENNA to win the BRAZILIAN GRAND PRIX..

My money will be on MASSA pulling it out this time around and stamping his authority over the racing world and finally come in his own elements,emerging from the shadows of his more illustrous teammates,7-time world champ MICHAEL SCHUMACHER followed by KIMI RAIKKONEN -the defending champion..

HAMILTON'S aggressive streak might just prove costly this time around and with him having little support outside the McLaren camp,with his former teammate and 2-time world champ FERNANDO ALONSO making it clear that he would do anything it takes,to help Massa win,the odds are stacked heavily against him..

KUBICA will have to really race like there is no tomorrow if he has to beat these two exceptionally brilliant racers with a supposedly more aerodynamically suitable car at their disposal..

SO TUNE IN TO THE CHINESE GRAND PRIX TOMORROW AT 12:30 P.M.(IST) FOR LIVE ACTION IN THIS SEASON LAST ASIAN RACE FOR A THRILLER..

Tools for Bloggers

2008-10-14T17:58:00.000+05:30

Online blogging is taking a new turn now. The online blog writing is quite a fad but writing blogs offline only to be published later is also has its own charm. I found two tools that are latest and one of the best for offline blogging.

1. Qumana is an easy-to-use desktop blog editor, enabling you to write, edit and post to one or more blogs.

2. Windows Live Writer is offline blog writing tool from Microsoft. Released as Beta , good for Microsoft follower.

My personal favourite is Qumana. got everything which a regular blogger requires..

ZOOMING BACK TO THE GOLDEN DAYS OF MY LIFE

2008-09-20T17:18:00.002+05:30

SCHOOL DAYS ARE UNFORGETTABLE FOR ALL OF US..but for me they are just too special to forget..
i am a born prankster...the most disgusting part of the academic calender for me,was not the exams,it was the PARENT-TEACHER'S MEETING..
right from class 1st till 12th,one thing that didnot alter,was mt uncanny knack of being involved in all kinds of pranks and sometimes getting caught..
some of the best ones are as under:
1. in class 7th my maths teacher,mr.vijay soni,had a very special habit..out of around 8 classes per week,i used to get punished around 5 times..according to him,i was not supposed to open my outh during his entire class,but he didnot know,who he was standing against..in the whole academic year,i was present in only 30% of his classes and he still remebers me till date and only because i am the most active member of an orkut community "soni sir haters club"..

2.. in class xi th the most rocking time,for me was my chemistry pracs..i have broken innumerable test tubes..but my most significant contribution to my school's infrstructure has been the PURPLE SPOT on the ceiling of my lab..an experiment gone horibbly wrong..
i had to add conc sulphuric acid drop by drop to the iodine soln but i poured it all in one go,and the fountain of purple that followed was for everyone to see..

3...in class 12th there was a boy named piyush in my class.was a very childish,innocent kinda guy..i and one of my friend,we used to hit him with blackboard chalk,after every class..sometimes we used to make him eat chalks also..once our class teacher mrs.RENU SINHA, a marvellous teacher,caught us..i and my friend impulsively told her that we were stopping piyush from eating chalks..as we had a good impression on her,she believed us and told piyush that i will surely tell your parents about this habit of yours...all through the year,he was the butt of our jokes..
SOME MORE PRANKS AND MY CHILDHOOD AWARAGIRI ARE IN STORE..

next coming----"the story of my first crush"

DOES THE ENGINEERING COURSE STRUCTURE IN OUR COUNTRY NEED A COMPLETE REVAMP??

2008-09-18T17:37:00.001+05:30

when a young 18yr old walks through the hallowed entrance gates of any prestigious college he had always dreamt of attending,there is a spring in his step,a spark in his eyes and an almost infectious enthusiasm.......
THAT IS IT.....
what happens after that is like the exponential radioactive decay in radium...
engineering is a very interesting career option but the people who are actually facing the music in these institutes have a very different opinion..
practical knowledge and exposure borders on the negligible..
these brainy guys who have worked out their guts for 2years( in some cases 3,if ur a dropper) to just get through those entrance tests,attending school,balancing tutions and masti that comes with entering class xi th,feel let down by a teaching methodology that requires you to mug up a night before and vomit it out in hte exam the next day..
is this why we guys slogged?????
I WANNA BRING IT TO YOUR KNOWLEDGE THAT INDIAN STUDENTS HAVE ABOUT .001% PRACTICAL KNOWLEDGE AS COMPARED TO THEIR WESTERN COUNTERPARTS...
what a waste....the resource pool of india is being wasted by these institutions which are being awarded the highest rankings,(including iit's): ITS TIME TO CHANGE,BE IN SYNC WITH THE CHANGING WORLD,OTHERWISE THE GREAT INDIAN DREAM MIGHT JUST BUST UP SOONER THAN EXPECTED...